On Loss … Again

When you have picky kids, and you lose one of them, one of the memories that you are terrified of forgetting is the particular way that they preferred the various dishes that you cook as a regular course for your family for example, today I was preparing chili and thinking about how my one son who was lost last year preferred no toppings and my other one who was also last last year preferred all of the toppings it’s a funny thing a thing that you take for granted when they are here just something you remember as a mom and then something you fight very hard to hold onto once they’re gone.