Grace

I am telling you this because I once wondered if I really was, because I lived with someone who made me feel I was, and told me I was. My friends and a professional all confirmed I was not but instead was suffering the effects of living with a person who was acting, if not crazy himself, certainly unconventionally and unreasonably.

Communication with a person with narcissistic tendencies can make you feel crazy. You will bring up a promise they made only to hear them say they do not recall it or deny having said it. All the time. Even if you go as gray as you can while for parenting they will still try to pull you in, telling you they cannot take the children to a counseling appointment during their parenting time so that you cancel it, then asking the following day what time the appointment is.

I say this so you know that you are not alone. I don’t know you but would hazard to guess that if you are reading this, it is not you but them. stay strong and don’t let them make you actually crazy.

*This post is in no way meant to belittle anyone suffering from mental illness. The term “crazy” here is used in the broad and generic sense. We all need to take care of our mental health just as we do our physical.

I listened to a podcast on Spotify by Renée Swanson about living on breadcrumbs and it really resonated with me. I lived on so little emotionally during my twenty year marriage. Just ask was positively elated growing up in Michigan if the weather was nice for a whole weekend, during my marriage I was happy if we had a peaceful time when things didn’t blow up chaotically. I always thought it was me and worked so hard to fix myself snd the relationship but now I understand there was nothing I could have done. I learned this when I sacrificed my home, friends, house, and career to uproot my family and move to a state where my husband did not have a job just so he might be happy. News flash: he wasn’t. People like him will never be happy.

Also check out Rebecca Zung on YouTube. Education will bring light to your situation. Praying for you tonight.🙏🏻💕