My current self says to my past self…
Think about why someone would want to move every time you become settled…
Why would he talk you into building a house that becomes your dream house as you fill it with babies…only to talk you into selling it with the dream of raising your boys on a large plot in the country …to end up renting someone else’s rundown home…
Why would you later uproot again from the place your five children know to move to another state where you cannot work…
Why did you give up the perfect situation you created for your family for the promise of a new life that in reality was an apartment where you valiantly crammed your big family?
Why did you sacrifice your dreams for his shifting ones that were never actually pursued?
Why are you giving up your precious, hard earned NY Bar license because he says it costs too much at $99 per year?
Why are you letting him cash in the 401k you earned?
But then…I am proud of you for not listening when he said you couldn’t get a job after 10 years home with your babies, and for finding a position on your terms.
I am proud of you for making change despite the odds, and for how far you’ve come in this strange new land.
I believe in you. You can do it. Your children are watching and they see too. They are learning by your example.
Notes From Real Life 